Has it really been two years since I’ve posted? TWO YEARS?
At first I stopped posting so I could have time to write. And then I stopped posting because I was pregnant with baby #4. And then I stopped posting because my computer crashed. And then I just stopped posting.
But the one sure thing about our years apart is that everything changes.
I lost my mom unexpectedly to cancer about nine months ago. I say unexpectedly because when she was diagnosed we were told she had six to nine months without treatment, two years with.
But it turned out she only had six weeks.
I miss my mom with an ache I don’t think will ever go away. On good days I can remember her with smiles and joy, looking forward to the day I see her again. On bad days the reminders are sharp and painful. But if there’s one thing I’ve learned through this, it’s that a Mother’s love is UNBREAKABLE. She may be gone from this earth but my mother’s love is all around me. She is more than a memory; she is a living presence. She loves her children too much to ever truly leave us. And that truth has filled me with comfort and peace every single day.
As we start a new year, I know that one sure thing in life is that everything changes. Awesome changes, sad changes, challenging changes. No matter how we resist, change comes.
I have lived in fear of change before. Sometimes it threatens to overwhelm me again. But then I remember that the OTHER sure thing in life is our Savior, Jesus Christ. He who “changest not” can sustain us through any change.
As we sang at my mom’s funeral, “when change and tears are past, all safe and blessed we shall meet at last.”